Zanthera Degore

Well .com that is. So good to be back there.

Will email with new addy when last touches are done

works in mysterious ways.

When one is taught to do magic a lot of perspective is discussed. It's a whole different way of looking at the world. To me for example cooking and gardening are of the most in your face magical things ever. Seeds that become great plants and mixing ingredients to create something totally different are pretty awesome.

Magic is until science figures it out. Even when science does there are things that will always remain magical.

I have been bad at creating a magical journal but that's is entirely mostly due to that I am stubborn thinking I can remember everything still. They say your brain starts to degenerate after the age of thirty and I am just over that hill. Getting into the hang of having that magical journal should be a good idea.

The past month "signs" are becoming more obvious and easier to see. Does this come with age? Perhaps, I find myself talking about people in there early twenties now are so young and naive. I so hated being called naive at that age too but now understand.

Lately things like wondering why I found myself searching for a copy of the Bible on Amazon (I think it's a great book just the people following it are destroying it) then within 24 hours I am talking to my Muslim friend at work and how his milestone of finally seeing Egypt before hitting fifty has "opened" his eyes. He suggest after our deep conversation that it seems I should have a "trip" myself. Damn if I can remember at this moment other little perceptions I have had. I do have a book for a magical journal and did I mention the dust on it to which I can truly etch designs in it?

Yes I do admit I have much fear for change (or failing which ever way you want to see it) even though I crave it bad. Career is being one of them. The past week my gut feelings have been screaming at me that I need change. Then I rationalize it as being my bad habit of not keeping a job for more than a year. Jobs get boring but writing as exciting as it is for me does not pay well right away and I do have bills. I say I am too old to go back to school and many have yelled at me for that as well. I dream often of having my own restaurant or writing career. I don't think I could ever get bored of those. My horoscope today says I have to reconsider my career goals. Now I have the universe telling me off.

I have looked into different kinds of nursing to spruce things up a bit but most want me with a vehicle. I'm also jealous somewhat that a friend has gone back to work to get a higher degree of nursing. I feel left behind somewhat. I do know something is coming my way soon and I hope I see it as much as I see every other little thing.

Other news, I should have my own hosting by the end of the week with WP as my blogging platform.

I mean lately it's been a big peeve about how I find everyone thinks they deserve to not have to pay for their entertainment. From video games, movies, to even TV shows. Everything modded, downloaded, and copied.

The big kicker was an immigrant upset she can't get movies at 8 for 4$ all on one DVD here in this country. I told her I don't believe in getting it for free. I have been on both side of Computer Programming and Fine Arts and know the hard work it is putting something together at least in the gaming department.

We debated and argued and I had her at all points. You could see the frustration in her eyes and after a moment of silence she found her pride in this remark:

"I can't pay for anything in full because I don't believe the money goes to who it should."

I so bit my tongue cause I could have blasted her once again. How narrow minded and ignorant. Therefore if we follow her train of though the guy who delivers the product should not get paid. The guy who finds buyers should not get paid. The promotional guy shouldn't get paid and all the other people involved in making entertainment.

What I almost came to say in reply to her statement:

"Not their fault you can not get paid more than a job wiping other people's asses."

I wonder how long people would work if every other day they didn't get paid.

Some news I haven't told many. I was approached by someone who says they are an editor. I think it's pretty cool someone "official" thinks my writing can be something. Who ever you are thank you for the encouragement.

I have rehashed the 6 pages from last years "Script Frenzy" and redone them and more. Dang I sure did miss somethings.